Doors. I have been stuck on this blog post idea for about three weeks. I have the cutest door listings waiting in the wings, but I just can’t chisel out the idea from my creative mind. The idea seems to be lodged behind a story of locking myself behind the bathroom door when I was in kindergarten and standing at the thresholds of all the doors I have ever come upon. There’s no shred of intrigue to either idea. I locked myself behind a door and I have  indecisively stood at the doors of life. What more can I say?

I was afraid to crawl out from under the bathroom door because it was a huge, white, empty bathroom with a long line of steel grey bathroom doors which went on forever. Something scary lurked behind each door, waiting, only for me. I hated going in there by myself. I hurried so I could leave with the other kids. Unfortunately, that particular day, I was slower than usual and got left behind. Then, to my little kid horror, I couldn’t get the door unlocked. Fear gripped my five year old heart as I stood paralyzed in the silence staring at the silver lock. I yelled for help.

The truth of the matter was that I could crawl out but then I would be standing alone in the silence of the bathroom and that frightened me more than what lurked behind each door. I didn’t even think that what lurked behind each door could actually slither from stall to stall until it reached me. No, the silence terrified me more.

Help did come in the form of a teacher or a child, I can’t remember who, but I was no longer facing the silence alone. I think my rescuer told me I could crawl out because I remember feeling oddly stupid, but, it was better than feeling terrified of the silence.

Silence of the unknown. I wonder if that fear of the silent unknown has followed me through the years? Each locked door has held it’s own silence of the unknown. And since I didn’t rescue myself, do I unknowingly expect someone to rescue me at each new door?

I had to stop writing this blog last night to ponder the question of whether I expect someone to rescue me at each new door.  My answer is no. I don’t go through many doors to find out what is on the other side. I don’t go out and make opportunities to open new doors. Well, I knew that at the beginning of this blog. Nothing earth cracking here.

Maybe I need to jump to a deeper level in my mind. One minute pause. Nope, no depth here. I am feeling sad, boo hoo. I am at the end of this blog without any new thoughts on my closed door life.

Although, it did occur to me this morning, while I was getting dressed, that I could do a door series. I could walk through a new door each day and write what happened on the other side of the door. But, then I thought, which doors would those be? Restaurants? Stores? Church? Psychiatrist? Doors to my sibling’s homes? The proverbial doors?

I could call the series The Door Explorer. Yes,  I know, it sounds like Dora the Explorer.

The Easy Path – Autobot Style

So, I have been reading these New Age books on New Age stuff. Stuff that’s been around since -oh well-since Adam and Eve, but has been written in more palatable terms that we contemporary humans can understand, like how to find your joy path. According to Rhonda Byrne, author of “The Secret,” the easy path to joy is to think good, happy thoughts when we wake up in the morning. 

Good, happy,  thoughts should defeat the ever present dark thought that’s stuck in our frontal lobe. Having a lobotomy would be an easier method to clear out those negative thoughts. We’d definitely would be on a path, albeit a joyless one, which of course would defeat the purpose of finding our joy.

Since a lobotomy is not for everyone, then how do we think positive thoughts every minute of the day? Is it even realistic to positively think every second of the day?  Maybe a better question to ponder is is it realistic for a negative thinker to suddenly become a positive thinker?

No one suddenly becomes anything in life. It’s all baby steps, baby.  If you tend to be a negative thinker, such as I, then it’s baby autobot steps.

Baby autobot steps are similar to baby steps. While  baby step statements are said in a step, listen to yourself berate yourself, step, listen to yourself berate yourself, step, fall back and whine motion, baby autobot steps  are stated forcefully and rapidly through your brain in order to shut down the negative streamline that’s embedded into your brain like a gushing winding river. And, believe me there is passion in rapid and forcefull positive statement propulsion.

However, you need more than three positive statements otherwise saying the same statement like, “I am a highly intelligent person,” gets a little tedious after five minutes. You might start to lose the necessary passion for it and yourself, somewhere at nine minutes.  And, if the passion is gone, well, heck, you might as well as launch that negative track you’ve grown accustomed to or simply just take a break, and then resume the rapid propulsions, possibly after lunch when you’re about to fall asleep. Yes, indeedy, that was a long sentence.

Let’s work with eight positive statements to propel through your brain. You can make them up with your own fiery passion attached to them or you can use mine. You’ll just have to exude extra passion because they already have my energy attached to them as well as the energy of the person I originally got the statements from. No, I didn’t steal or plagerize. I’ve read lots of self-help books and positive affirmation emails from various positive thinking people over the years.

1. I am a highly intelligent person.

2. I am a calm and peaceful person.

3. I am a creative problem solver.

4. My joy comes from within.

5. My body is healthy.

6. Laughter is my medicine.

7. I have knowledge of all things (Esther Hicks). This one helps with solving problems.

8. I turn the other cheek and focus on other things. (Esther Hicks, The Bible) This one helps with neighbors.

This method of rapid positive statement propulsion does require that you memorize the statements, so that each one flows right after each statement. Otherwise, you will get stuck on one statement, and as I have stated earlier, it does get tedious after five minutes. Then state each statement with as much good “Feel Good” passion. You can vary the way you state each statement by emphasizing words. Go shout it out if you must to imprint a new winding gushing river path in your brain.

If this doesn’t work, then fall back and whine.